It's been two months and I don't know why I've been putting off this post but I have....and now that Addie is almost turning one I'm realizing writing it is now or never...so here it is...and as a warning - it is about BREASTFEEDING...so stop now if thats TMI...don't say I didn't warn you!!
If you read my post here all about our breastfeeding journey several months ago you might remember that I mentioned that Addie was from time to time receiving some formula to supplement what my body wasn't making. Emotions ran high around our house at first but gradually I accepted it and over the course of a few months I realized that Addie was getting more and more of it. I'm not a formula hater...I wanted to breastfeed for as long as I could and was secretly hoping that we could make it to a year. What I didn't realize was how quickly these kids grow (yep, I had no idea...a year ago I would have told you that Addie might be crawling by a year but certainly would not have any teeth...naive and clueless, I know!) Anyhow...I'll put it out there...as Addie got older things started to get weird for me (its personal, i know - i don't think its weird for anyone else to breastfeed past 9 months so I'm not trying to be offensive or insensitive here). I know its natural...I know its healthy...I get that...but when she was grabbing at my shirt and nuzzling her head in my cleavage I just started to feel like we were ready to move to just a bottle. And then it happened...she chomped down....and thought it was funny...2 days in a row...yes, that was it - we would be nursing no more. I planned to continue pumping for as long as I could but shortly after stopping nursing I noticed a steep decline in my supply. Like...I pumped for 20 minutes...both sides....and only got an ounce. I'd be lying if I didn't say there was some relief in putting away the pump and making the switch to all formula...enough to overshadow the disappointment I felt for not making it to the year mark...or 2 year mark as my Addie's pediatrician encouraged me to do (the hubs quickly nixed that idea). We were lucky...Addie made the transition to formula with ease and my girls dried up with a quickness (not once after my marathon pump session to only get an ounce did I ever even feel full)...and I'm EXTREMELY thankful for that. Now we're approaching the next transition to cow's milk and I'm VERY excited about that. Like I said above...I'm not a formula hater but I couldn't drink the stuff so I'm looking forward to introducing Addie to the good stuff....whole milk..yum!!
Anyone else have a similar experience....or not??