Sunday, Not So.fun.day

good morning!!

Well...its here...the day I have been dreading has finally arrived.  Today I will be making the trek from my home to South Carolina (about 6 hours away) for a company "retreat."  I'll be leaving the baby girl with my hubs, who is a wonderful daddy, but I still can't seem to stomach the thought that I won't be singing "you are my sunshine" tomorrow morning to get my girl up or seeing her gummy grin when she sees me for the first time.  I have full faith and confidence that she will be fine and my parents are right around the corner in the event he needs an extra hand but I'm being selfish right now and really feeling sorry for myself about having to be away from her for a couple of days.

As for the feeding situation, Addie is basically exclusively breast-fed with a few bottles of formula thrown in when she's going through a growth spurt or milk gets left out overnight (nothing makes me feel more defeated than realizing that a bottle of milk got left on the counter all night and has to be thrown out) but I only have about 3 bottles stored in the freezer so she will be getting MUCH more formula over the next couple of days - which I'm ok with, I just hope she adjusts ok.  She gets the bulk of her milk from what I pump in a bottle because of my work schedule but she has always nursed for her first feed - so I'm hoping that change in her routine doesn't upset her. Another twist is that these company "retreats" require everyone to share a room due to some space constraints so thankfully, a good friend of mine with the company is also going and she has a little one that was born in January and she is pumping too!  Can you imagine that conversation (as they usually put you with someone that works in a different city that you don't know very well) - "Hi, I'm ___________, I'm just going to go in the bathroom for about 30 minutes and use this black bag to pump - please don't mind the noise."  And, don't worry about the bottles of milk that are accumulating in the fridge, I'll take those with me when I go."  Yeah, that would be awkward and uncomfortable so thankfully, I've got a roommate that knows all too well and is also leaving her baby girl for the first time too - misery loves company:)

So, today is a tough one for me and I must give credit to my husband too - its a tough one for him.  I know he's nervous about being the only one here.  Hopefully, I'll be able to blog down there but in the event I can't, I've scheduled a few small posts to go up while I'm gone but I apologize in advance if I'm not able to get on blogger and can't keep up with and comment on everyone's goings on.  Fingers crossed...they don't take that from me too:)

J